This post was written March 8th, but not posted until March 19th.
As I sat here today trying to figure out what to write, it is dawning on me how much life is pressing in on me. I think to say that I am depressed or overwhelmed may be an understatement. It seems that life is caving in on all sides. I am always tired, but can’t sleep the whole night through. I have a list of to-dos, but can only seem to get to a few. I am confident that peace and healing will come, but I still struggle to fake a smile. How can this be? Seriously, how can that be? I was the fake smile pro. I’m sure you know what I am referring to… the ever present smile even though your world is a lie.
I saw this picture (Overwhelmed by Elena Covalciuc Vieriu http://leblow.co.uk/on-the-brink-of-burnout-do-you-need-a-digital-detox/overwhelmed-art/ ) as I was googling and thinking today. It spoke to me. It seemed to capture how I feel. I wish I could go into details but I can’t… not yet. But my world lately is an endless battlefield… divorce papers, a Facebook stalker, a spitting bandit, a pooping puppy, my dream home gone, living alone for the first time in my life… the list goes on. It feels crushing.
But yet I still have a flicker of a flame in me. I can feel it. The sense of peace trying to break through. My prayer is that we all find our peace no matter what we are going through, because God can take what was meant for harm and turn it into good. I am so thankful for that. I hope you can find a flicker of peace in that too.
Song: Even If by Mercy Me
“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” – Jeremiah 29:11