Tonight’s post is fresh and a little raw. I have now been told twice that my life is too much for someone else… too much to handle, too overwhelming, too much drama, too…
I’ve been pondering what exactly that means for me. Does that mean I am ridiculously strong for being able to take my life in stride now? Does that mean the other person is incredibly weak? Is it an insult? Am I supposed to feel bad? Does that mean I should blame my father for yet another failed relationship? What does it mean? And what do I do next?
I can tell you what answers I do have… I know I am strong. I know I have grit. (love that word ❤ ) I know that God has an incredible plan for my life. I know God will help me through this just like He helped me through everything else. I know I will persevere. I know this hurts like hell. I know my life is in God’s hands. He will work it out for my best interest and He is in control.
I also know and this is where it is scary for me… I could SO easily blame my dad and my trauma and back slide. So this is where I challenge you and me… let’s not blame our past. Let’s move forward. If others think our lives are too much to handle because we were abused, shame on them. They are missing out on some incredibly strong people… special people. People who have seen THE WORST of mankind and survived. It’s not every day that you are invited into the life of a person who has experienced that and wants to change the world.
So here we go… WE ARE SPECIAL! WE ARE UNIQUELY STRONG! WE ARE SURVIVORS!
Some verses on perseverance that are speaking to me now:
“3 Not only so, but we also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance;4 perseverance, character; and character, hope. 5 And hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit, who has been given to us.” – Romans 5:3-5
“Therefore, among God’s churches we boast about your perseverance and faith in all the persecutions and trials you are enduring.” – 2 Thessalonians 1:4
“Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.” – James 1:4
“I know your deeds, your hard work and your perseverance. I know that you cannot tolerate wicked people, that you have tested those who claim to be apostles but are not, and have found them false.” – Rev 2:2
“I know your deeds, your love and faith, your service and perseverance, and that you are now doing more than you did at first.” – Rev 2:19