Needless to say after my spiritual suicide and being found out, I was then ostracized from what was my family since I was 16 and nothing stays quiet so by the summer, my girls knew what I had done. So much for just hurting myself.
What I didn’t know then but I unfortunately know now because of experience is that sin and pain I caused had an amazing rippling effect. It hurt my kids, my now ex-husband, his family, my friends, my future husband, and I am sure others I don’t even know about. The things we do to hide our pain, stop our pain, feel our pain, deal with our pain hurt everyone around us for an amount of time that goes beyond our momentary comprehension. This is why we need God. It is only with Him that we can confront our pain without causing tragic rippling effects to the ones we love. I wish I had known that then. My only hope is that others can learn this lesson from my story and save themselves and their families from even more pain.
Thankfully if you did sin, we have a loving, graceful God who shows us his mercy every day. We just need to is seek forgiveness.
Song: All My Hope by Crowder
“But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.” – Romans 5:8 (NIV)